What a Beautiful day!

What a beautiful day!  Its 78 degrees in my beautiful hometown of Lilburn GA!  Have I said that I LOVE fall?  :)

Have you ever sat back, and started thinking about past events in your life?  Good or bad, either one...I can remember when I was going thru some hard times, I was always sad, asking God why me??  I thought I was a good person, I was a Christian, maybe I wasn't in the center of God's will, but I went to church, I was involved in activities there, I did all the "right" things.  I managed to "get past" these things, not giving any credit to where it was due.  I just "got past them".  

It was years, many years later that I realized this, instead of asking "why me", I said, "why NOT me"?  What made me so special that it couldn't happen to me?  

Things started happening in my life after I had been living in GA for a few years.  Financial, relationship, my sense of worth, my independence was gone, I had no self esteem.  Let me back up, just a tad.....

I had been totally dependent my entire life.  Growing up, marrying so young, I was always dependent on someone.  Until one day, I woke up, and I was Judy, the real Judy.  I realized I had been who everyone else wanted me to be all my life.  I wanted to please everyone I loved, so I did as I thought they wanted me to do.  All this time, never really giving any thought to what GOD wanted me to be, or do.  So, I changed my life!  I got a job, started being independent.  It was liberating.  Still, I wasn't seeking whom God wanted me to be...that comes tho, just hang in with me......

Now, as I was saying.....Things started changing after I moved to GA.  I was not following God, in any way shape or form.  I knew what was right and wrong, I just did what Judy wanted to do.  It was fun, for awhile, then I became miserable, and didn't really even know why.  Things started going south with my relationship, with my finances...I was sad inside, I was putting a fake smile on my face for everyone else.  I could hide it pretty well, after all, that's what I had been doing my whole life!

After about a year of the sadness deep inside, the feeling of not knowing what was wrong, not knowing which way to turn, my world fell apart!  I had left work, gone home, I cried all the way home, not knowing why.  I let my dogs outside, and I sat with them, as I was crying uncontrollably.  I had NO idea why, or how to stop....after what seemed like forever, I lifted my head to the sky, and I said, "God you have to help me, you have to show me what to do!  I don't know where to go from here, I don't know how to fix whatever is wrong inside!"
Instantly I stopped crying, and my heart felt much lighter than it had in a very long time.  God had been waiting for me to ask.  He is always right there with us, but He gives us free will, and will never force us.  He just waits, patiently.  Thank God I reached out, because from that moment on, all sorts of things started happening in my life!  More bad things, but things that would make my faith grow and make me stronger for what was yet to come.  

And with this, I will leave you until tomorrow.  
My prayer is that if something I say, or share, can help someone else, then its worth bearing it to the world.  
Until tomorrow, God Bless us all!